When the lights dont blow the same way that they used too...

... And I finally get a moment to myself.

These past few days.. Hm. Drama. I really dont have time for that. When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you really have in you. I wonder if certain decisions are worth it? I wonder why people do the things they do? But lately, ive been thinking about me. I need to stop trying to make everyone else happy. If I am not happy, If I do not love myself, then I cannot love someone else. So, im taking a break from alot of people, alot of drama, alot of.. shit. And Focusing on me, my life, and my family. Because when it comes down to it.. you, are your own bestfriend.

Throw it in The bag...

Game Recognize Game

this aint directed to nobody, since some of yall be clockin my shit. jus feelin myself, feelin somethin like a BITCH.

second chances they dont matta, people never change.
Game Recognize Game, Yes Niggas; I play the game
i never been the type of bitch to mess with someone elses mess
all that extra baggage shit, fuck that Ill fall back, to the left let me step.
and when you realize im everything u need, go ahead and call back.
cuz every thug need a bitch like me; yea i got all that.
I hold a nigga down, let him run around town, as long as he dont come home wit fleas
cuz everybody know, when he done, he gon run back to ME.

Hahahaha;; Off to listen to some Nicki Minaj & Trina - My bitchessss!

Curiosity Killed the Cat

Have you ever been in the situation Where you had the oppertunity to find out the truth about everything. Where you could hear it all, no limits, no sensoring it, just the truth. straight up. bluntly. and once you took that chance, you found out the main things you didnt wanna know? It's like, you go into the situation hoping the truth is everything you think it is, great, and everything is fantastic. But really, it's everything you thought it could never be. My bestfriend recently had the chance to find out the truth about her boyfriend, he gave her his myspace Password. I honestly Hate myspace. It ruins realationships. I dont want any of my boyfriends passwords. Because every single one that I had, It ruined it. She read things thinking it would be nothing, But she found out the truth. She learned what she never wanted to know. Her curiosity killed it. Same with me. I recently had the chance to find out the truth of whats going on with the boy I like. I heard his whole conversation without him knowing I was listening. I regret it. I wish I didnt answer the phone. I wish I didnt Hear that. I wish I didnt find out, What now I already know. Cuz Now I cant look at him the same, Now im always going to think that shit. Everything he said is going to continue to run through my head. Im going to look at him differntly, im going to judge him. Im going to be angry with him and I cant tell him why. my curiosity just killed our future. So maybe this is a lesson learned, some things are better left unknown.

Akon, Inspiration?

Idk why or how THIS song inspires me. But after watching this video, It made me want to go do my project, Made me want to get off facebook.. get my grades up. Start sketching more designs. It made me want to chase my dreams again

I need a Vacation...

I really want to get away. Im tired of the same thing. I need something new in my life.
I grew up moving every year. Now, ive lived in the same area for 5 years. I need change. I want to start over, where nobody knows my name. I want a new life. Where I live, Im famous. No cockyness. People think its so wonderful to be popular. Its not. I wish I had some privacy. Everything I do, people have something to say. Every boy I like... People make him hate me. Haters, are my Motivators. But at the same time, It gets stressful. Im sick of everyone knowing of me. Im sick of everyone thinking they know ME. Id rather have no friends. Actually, I have no friends. I have my 3 bestfriends, and a million of associates. I need to move to a city. Where its so busy that I'll just be another face in the crowd. Where If I take a picture with someone, they wont assume thats my boyfriend. I want to get away, to a place somewhere new. So I can start over. Learn from my mistakes. Where I can realize, Id rather be nameless then to live the life of Fame.

Creativity Is Murder.

And Asher Roth Murdered This. So DOPE.

Day N Night.

D Sharp did A Cover To Day N' Night. This is So Sick. Really Dope. Had to share it. But learn to pronounce his name. Kid Cudi.

TRUST

I can sit here and write about this for HOURS. Trust is something that is hard for me. Ive learned the only person you can truly trust is yourself. A while back this song hit me hard, the video is okay. They could have done better. But the song will always have a spot in my heart. A while back in my past realationship. All I wanted was for him to trust me, Everything I did was so he could trust me. And in the end I realized, he trusted me too much. He trusted me to always be there, no matter what he did. He cheated on me, and played me. Instead of trying to get him to trust me, I should have been questioning if I really Trusted him. But here you go, Keyshia Cole - Trust.

OLD TRACK, NEW VIDEO.

This Track is Really Old, and So is the Drake Freestyle. So all they really did was put two and two together and make a video like 3 years late? ohkayyy. well the video is still hot.

Da Boss!

Q's Family

Que takes everybody on a look at his “reality”,
where his Mom & sister have a lil’ disagreement.
LMFAO @ Que laughing right in front of their face smh.

Nike Air Yeezys

Oh, Don't we All Just Wish we could Afford a Pair Of Em? If we weren't in a recession then I'd deffinitely spend a stack on them. But, Life is tough sometimes.

Shes Badddddd!

ATTENTION ATTENTION! DO NOT SLEEP ON CHRISETTE MICHELE!
this girl is Badddddddd! Her new album Epiphany is HOT!
So, im at home Sick from school for like the 3rd day?
and Her new video comes on TV. "What you Do - Ft Kanye"
As im watching im thinking, Where do I know that Voice from?
Then I get on my itunes and see its the same girl that sings
"love is you" and "Epiphany" two songs that Really Hit the Spot.
So I google her, and Listen to the rest of her songs, This girl is Badddd!
Every song she has I can relate to in Some way.
She's about to Blow up, I can tell.
Do not sleep on her!

Dont Make Me Cause a Scene

Teairra Mari's New Single?
I actually Like it...Should we expect a Comeback? Not with that flo-rida Feature. But the song is actually Good, And she looks good in the video. Be on the lookout for her new album that should be out this year.

To Wake Up in Paris

standing still ; but the worlds still spinning.
knowing what you want ; questions still existing.
wanting to get away ; with nowhere to go.
all thats left is the missing pieces.
throw it away or should we keep it?
asking yourself ; what am i living for.
same old same is getting bored.
wanting a chance but will not take it.
ready for a new beginning
looking back on it all ; wondering which choice was wrong.
one life is all we got - can we make it.
will she succeed, or die n a m e l e s s.

K. Hilson

I Love This Song. Its amazing. Keri Hilson is blowing up big time. Her new album "In a perfect world..." Is amazing. She is such as talented female. I cant wait to see what else we will recieve from her.

RELOADED

WADDUP! The BoSS is Back. Im Reloaded, and bouta Be Killen you Hoes. lls. Yes, I love Trina. But anyways. Sorry That my life has been So busy, and I havent updated in the LONGEST time. But Im Back. And I plan to make this Blog Great. Amazing. A Success. So Haters start your engines. I hear them gearing up! lets gooooo!



Currently Feelin This song.

OPEN YOUR EYES

So, Right Now go watch "What About Now" - Daughtry's most recent music video. I would put the Video here, but currently on youtube its blocking it.
This video almost brought me to tears. It's one of the realest songs/videos these day
It opened my eyes, I mean, I know whats going on in the world, like hunger, poverty, darfur, etc. But I never realized I could do something about it. I always thought im just ONE person. What could ONE person do. But really, all it takes is one person. By me writing this blog, im spreading the word. Atleast ONE person is going to go watch that video and it will impact them. They Will then go tell somene else. All it takes is one person to spread the word. Lately people in the united states are all about thereself. I have friends who don't even know what Darfur is. Friends who are ignorant, they think because it doesnt effect us directly, that we shouldn't do anything about it! Half of my friends, DONT like water. They refuse to drink it They complain it taste nasty. When there are children in other countries who dont have such a thing as CLEAN water. Nearly 1.1 billion people in the world do not have CLEAN water to drink.

Imagine how nasty THAT tastes?Im not going to sit here and ramble on. But this world, its OUR world. We make it what we want it. The future depends on us. We cant depend on the adults to do everything, they arent going to do something if we dont ask for it! EveryONE person can make a difference.

Want to get involved ?? Here's one site I personally think is really good.

http://www.charitywater.org/

Kanye Supports the Gay's

Here's just another reason why I love Mr. West, Kanye took some time out of his glow and the dark tour this week to denounce homophobia. Something I myself personally am strongly against.

"Open your fucking minds. Open your minds. Be accepting
of different people and let people be who they are. You know how many people
came to me calling me gay cause I wear my jeans the fresh way? Or because I said
hey, dude, how you gonna say 'fag' right in front of a gay dude's face and act
like that's ok. That shit is disrespectful. Coming from Chicago, where if you
saw somebody that was gay you were supppoed to stay ten feet away. It should be
time to break out of the intuitions that I was sayin', the stereotypes, or the
fear, the backlash that I would get if you don't believe in what I believe in,
acceptin' people for who they are…they're very talented and if they do something
special in the world and they're discriminated. I've flown across the world
y'all, and I've come back here to tell you — open your minds and live a happier
life…"

the wise words of kanye west. true shit.